That place...

Today, I am brought back to that place. That place on the lake...

The feeling I got that day was the same from twelve years ago. I remember it so vividly, but why didn't I just go... I was so happy, so free...

So many thoughts, so many changes and every time I go back there, my heart still races. It is like a powerful force, and now it is even stronger than before...

Great memories from Easter, Thanksgiving and Christmas. Visiting my family, those days I sure miss. I hold onto those thoughts and remember that feeling, inside my heart I am still dealing...

I stayed here for what I thought was the right reason, but for me he didn't believe in. So much time just gone, it is finally time to move on...

As I sit here drowning in questions, I remember a much happier time before all of these lessons. Experience has taught me well, but it also drug me through hell...

I see two visions, one of me stuck here abandoned and alone, where my heart just turns into stone and the other of me so happy, so free. Others offer me opinions and advice on what I should do... but it is my life, I am going to do what I want to do...

But then I take a step back, take a deep breath and relax. Wondering, am I just running off of adrenaline, I am not sure I can leave all of my friends. I have established such ground, so then I take another look around...

As I look at the life that I have now, it is the life that once was and the main reason why I still can't find love. I am through holding on, for what once was is now gone, never to return, and it just continues to burn...

So now is the time, to finally get what is mine. To live that life I have always dreamed of and possibly find another version of love. God has blessed me with a sweet child and given me the gift of freedom, offering me a second chance, so maybe I should just go and leave this...


By: MKV
7/10/2013